Confuse??

I just can't understand all the changes coming to me these few days. Boggle used to the game I like it so much that I'm willing to travel back to school everyday just for 2 or 3 hours of training. But the name "BOGGLE" now make me sick n tired. I'm already trying my very best to improve. I agree that I may not be putting in enough effort, still I'm already trying. There's always a limit to everything. Stop putting youself as a standard and wants everyone to fulfil it. I have eonugh of all these things. Worrying about not having enough players, worrying about the players not training hard enough, worrying about the team not as strong as last year. Do u all understand how much pressure all u guys putting on my shoulder? I though boggle should be a fun game? We should enjoy all the training session? Then why am I feeling more and more stressful as days passed. Maybe my feeling n love for hall 10 is decreasing, maybe I'm just born as a follower and have no leadership quality in me.

The thought of leaving the team is flashing on my mind every now and then. Should I just quit and leave the team to die? That will be super irresponsible of me to leave the team like that. But I'm seriously feeling super super stress. I don't think I'm up to the standard to be the pillar. Neither did I want to be one. I just wan to have fun learning the game. Even if I joined the team and play during the competition, I don't think I can play to whoever expectation. Why should I follow what u all want me to do, why can't I just have a life of my own?

Can I have a break? I want to enjoy the rest of my holiday before I go for my attachment, wanted to enjoy the last bit of my hall life just in case I"m not going to stay in year 4. Looks like I have made up my mind that hall life is really not what I'm looking for. So, bye to hall 10 and bye to all the sports and recreastional games I joined...

Happy Birthday Mr Wang

Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to Shaowei!
Happy Birthday to you!

Hope that all your wishes will come true. Of course the success of yesterday concert will be your best present. Hope you enjoy performing the concert as much as we enjoy watching it.

Ps: shaowei's birthday really bring me luck. Our tennis team manage to win hall 5 but 4-1. I'm so proud of all of you guys.

5566 3rd Concert

I'll definitely say that it's one of the best concertI have even seen. The theme of the concert was great. Tong yi ge shi jie. They present the theme by linking the different part of the world with their songs. With the company of the dance and customs, I think the whole concert was just a great success. Who would have done it better than them? The four of them, all so passionate about their job, all love to show their fans the talented side of them, all wanting to prove the other three that they are the most popular.

Maybe it's been a long long time I've watched wanyu, I finally missed watching wanyu so much that I have the urge to order SCV. Maybe I've too much ban fen ban, I'm growing to hate xiaozhu. For being over humble, for being over-promoting his ablum, it's really getting into my nerves. To the non-56 fans, you may not know that 56 and xiaozhu are rivals. Xiaozhu always like to say in ban fen ban that no matter how sick he's feeling, he'll always sing LIVE, unlike some other artists. It always give me this impression that he's talking about 56, maybe he doesn't mean them. Being a 56 fan, I always hate to hear people cristise 56 saying that they are always liping, they cannot sing, theyare popular because they are gd-looking. But today, yes today, we can prove them all WRONG! 56 can sing equally well if they want to. I wont say the whole concert was fully live, but at least most of the part was live. You can't expect them to sing very well when they dance like hell. Almost every song has a dance.

Happy for 56 to have such a fantastic concert, happy for myself that now I have upgraded. I have upgraded from a crazy fan to a cool fan. I didn't scream or shout throughout the concert, but still I enjoyed the concert just as much as the previous concerts. I can more fully concentrate on the songs, music and dance. I can understand how each parts are linked and see how much effort everyone has put in. Not only the singers (56), the dancers and the musicican (There is this guy at the concert that will play the flute and the drum, plus he's good-looking. Haa!)

There's this part of the concert which may lead to the jealousy of other shaowei's fans. I wont describe what happen here as a punishment of those who didn't go for the concert. For those who went, I'm sure you'll know what I'm talking about. From my point of view, I won't think he's a flirt but seriously I thought it was disgusting at that point of time. After having some thought, I think I'm prefectly fine with it. It's more of a interaction with the fans in another way. We all know that 56 seldom shake hands with their fans and stuff, since tomorrow (By the time I post up, it'll be todya le) is his birthday, I think he just want to do something more than normal which is super nice of him if I'm the fans. Any normal people won't mind your idol doing that to you too, at least it's true for me. Hee. So Amanda, continue to like shaowei lah, remember all the good side of him. His cute boyish short hair look, the look that make us like him so much before. It has been a long long time even since he cut his hair so long. Since the 1st ablum, which is 3 years ago, and now, he's bringing back the old him, the one which we once so crazy about. Maybe I won't be as crazy as before, maybe I won't get any more of 56 ablums, maybe I won't go for any more of 56 autograph session, but shaowei will always be my favourite member of 5566.

After the concert, I suddenly have the urge to make sure that I'll definitely study harder for my next semster. Looking at shaowei, being so successful, not as an artist but as a student. Being able to enjoy life (play so hard), yet manage to get his university certificate. Never know that he actually inspire and influence me alot in my life. I think I have really grow up in some way, to think in a different view. I'm still willing to support 56 because they inspire me to work harder to achieve my goals.

Being 21, it's time to leave all the crazyness behind. Having a idol will be like having a role model in life. It'll lead to the end of my idol chasing life.

Sad :(

Today is the 1st squash game i have played in my life... so sad that i lost 0-9... boo.. i enjoyed squash n i hope to pick it up too... but i'm so freaking lousy... though i haven touched squash 4 one whole yr.. but it's still sad to lose.... boo.... i tink i cannot take the feeling of losing.. so nv put me in any games... i cant stand to lose again...

More Post Coming

Finalli, my hse comp have been changed... now tat i have a new comp n broadband, i'll be online more frequent... definitely.... n mmore post will more will be coming up... wait 4 all my posts... i'm so excitied...

Sorrie

to those who have been trying to call me 4 the past few daes... so sorrie... my hp is dead... n it's under repair... i dont noe wat's wrong wif the nokia service center... a small keypad malfunction took them 5 daes to repair.. i tot we can get back my hp within an hr? n worst, they nv even give me a hp 4 me to use 4 the next 5 daes... i can live w/o a hp feeling prefectly fine.. but so sorrie to the pple trying to look 4 me 4 the past few daes...

enough of complaining... gg to town to ask back my hp on sat... gd news to the pple who have been reading my blog n found it not updated 4 so long... i'm finally back.... haa...